Edited to add: I am not currently suicidal! Sorry to scare people!
I shared yesterday that I have a 72 hour plan to try to stop myself from committing suicide. I promised myself that if I still feel like killing myself after 72 hrs of feeling that way, that I could give myself permission to kill myself. I am a rapid cycling bipolar person, so usually don’t have that long of episodes.
My friend CJ said he doesn’t like the 72 hour plan, because it is a plan involving suicide which is a dangerous thing to have. I’m not sure I’m ready to give up the 72 hr plan, but I am willing to tweak the plan to having more things I have to do if I’m feeling bad.
So this is where you all come in. Please suggest things that I might do, and at what hour of the episode I should do them to keep myself healthy and (hopefully) alive.
Like at what hour of suicidal feelings should I go to the hospital, or at least call a doctor? What should my timeline be for telling Brad? How about for telling someone outside of Brad? Anything else I should do, with an hour time marking?
I feel suicidal a LOT. Probably a few times a month. So I don’t want the plan to be any suicidal feelings and I go to the hospital. That would be overkill (no pun intended). Suicidal feelings are part of my normal.